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so, this blog is 3 parts. of course, since writing is foremost to me, it will be the first part of the blog LOL
I worked on The Prank today. I had to go back to the beginning. well, didn’t have to go to the beginning, but decided that I needed to start from their first beginning. not from their second beginning. They needed their back story. I am not the kind of writer that will put out a book then will go back and do the prequel. I hate it when that happens. it drives me batty. same with movies. I have a book series that I read that she has done that to me, not once, but twice in the series. She wrote the story, then did the prequel. then she did the continuation of the original story, then she did the prequel of the prequel. I was sooo confused when I got the fourth book. I had to figure out the timeline, then put the books in order and reread it in the order they are supposed to be, not the order they were published in. I could have killed her for doing that LOL. I will never do that. If I don’t include the pre-story in a book, I will not do a pre-story. well….I won’t say never. but the odds of me doing that, are very slim to none. I hate prequel’s. LOL. so anyway, the twin’s get their first beginning told in their actual book, especially since it is pertinent to the rest of the story, and since it is not going to be long enough to be its own book, there is no reason to make it its own book. Oh sure, where it is about the gods and goddesses, I have plenty of material to write and write and write and make lots of books, but, that would be taking away from the twins story, and it will no longer be the Hubris series. I could have written far more than I did today, but, I ran into a block…I was going to go one way, and Artemis decided that it was not feasible to do it, so now I have to figure out a different route to take. Dang goddess LOL. They always have a way of making their own plans known ;-) “If you want to make a goddess (god/deity) laugh, make plans.”
I hate how sporadic it is. But, thanks to the doctor getting me on some better anxiety medication, it seems to be a bit better. Now, it is just a matter of getting used to doing a schedule. If I can actually sit down to a schedule, I think I can actually get more writing done than I ever have. It will be challenging to get the schedule, what with grandma, and doctors and dentists and family period. but I think I can do it. no. I will do it. I will. I have to. I can’t keep playing around with it. If I am going to actually do this, I have to actually do this. I love writing, I have proven I can do it. I have proven I can sell it. I need to figure out how to up my sales, but I have proven I can do it. So, I need to prove I can get my output going better. Sure, I have problems. But, I can’t let that hold me back. I can’t travel. so what. it is not like I live in a world where travel was essential. So, I have problems typing some days. I can work around that. So I have lots of pain. I can work with and around that too. I don’t have to let all of this hold me back. I can’t keep using it as an excuse, or let it limit me. I need to stop letting my health define me. I am a writer, damn it. not a some-time-if-my-body-will-permit-it-I-will-jot-down-some-words hobbyist. I have two books under my belt published. That shows that I can do it. I have a eSerial going pretty good, granted it is only a few chapters, but it is still going pretty good. I have a couple of books that may, if they turn out well, turn into serials. No more playing at this, no more letting my health define me.
So, been going to a new diabetes doctor. well, he is not going to be just my diabetes, he is going to be my everything doctor. I am very impressed with him so far. I think I have mentioned him. I think. I mailed off the last bit of paperwork to get the insulin pump today. They should get it tomorrow, which means, that I should have the insulin pump in 2 weeks at the most. More than likely it should be ready for me to schedule to get trained on in a week. I am getting so excited! This, I hope, will make such a vast improvement. I know I am already on the pump, but 1) we are not sure if the pump is even working and 2) the new pump has what is called a CGMS (Continuous Glucose Monitoring System) which keeps my blood sugars monitored in between my usual testing and will adjust the pump and also alarm if my blood sugars go too high or too low so hopefully I will be able to keep my blood sugars from going to such extremes and I will be able to keep more stable…which in turn, we hope, will either stabilize or totally eliminate some of my other complications and health problems. Then I will be able to go in and get my eyes checked and worked on, as well as get my shoulders worked on and my feet/back and maybe have improvement on my digestive system.
Then, dentist. My old dentist, we have found out, was just a patcher. instead of taking out and fixing the whole problem, when he found a cavity, he would just patch the cavity to the old fillings, so he did not get all of the decay. So, Tuesday, when my new dentist went in to work, there was a lot more work to do than the x-ray showed. my mouth and jaw is still sore LOL. I still have at least 2 more appointments to get my teeth in shape, then a cleaning. Then, hopefully, we can get on a regimen of 3 visits a year for maintenance and 2 visits a year for deep cleaning. and, depending on things, I may, just for myself, have him whiten my teeth after getting them all fixed up LOL.
Just like, if I can get feeling somewhat better with the health if we can get the diabetes even somewhat going better, maybe I can start doing some light exercising again and get into at least a little bit better shape physically. I was looking at my legs night before last and they are looking pretty skinny….which is not a good thing. cause I am 5’10” 210 lbs…and my legs look too skinny for that…and in one place, I have slight muscle bulging (past doctor noticed that) down by my ankle and in a couple others, the muscle is caved in. So, I am worried that my leg muscles are wasting due to not much use. worries me a lot. so, definitely, if I can get feeling better and not in so much pain and the diabetes to a place that I can exercise safely, definitely.
Like I told the doctor. I am tired of living like this. I want to actually live. Well, since I can’t go home (right Adelfi? ;-) hehe) I want to at least be healthy here. No sense being unhealthy and miserable. Time to get my butt in gear and be a healthy writer. **that was typed with a vigorous head nod LOL*
**disclaimer: writer I am, writer I will always be. But spelling I never claimed to own. There will always be spelling errors, even with the aid of spell checkers. Unless I employ 20 proof-readers, and if I do that, you will never get to see these blogs…so, guess you will have to put up with the spelling errors….or do what I do. Blame it on the Typo-Fae and say the spelling errors occurred en-route ;-)**
